8 months back

Its been two months since I've:
had truly sun-kissed skin, heard the sound of the ocean echoing in my ear, tasted salt water on my lips, had naturally perfect ringlets, donned a bathing suit, spent the afternoon gazing at beautiful brown bodies dancing on the water, gotten lost in reggae, dabbled in herbal relaxation, felt sand in my between my toes and in my sheets, taken a cold shower, watched a glorious sunset, used my camera, made fun of tourists, enjoyed anything with macadamia nuts, not thought twice about seeing an abandoned charred vehicle on the side of the road, star-gazed at La Perouse, heard the surf report, been invited to a luau, went hiking, swam in a waterfall, kissed you hello and goodbye everytime we met...

However, I have:
re-connected with old friends, made some new friends, enjoyed the satisfaction of efficiency and productivity, made some really great home-cooked meals, hugged my parents and sister and grandparents, been to 2 baseball games, heard some REALLY GOOD live music, not worried about getting skin cancer, felt truly safe, been able to call my parents as late as 9 pm, begun to tell my story, laughed to the point of tears, trusted someone enough to let go again, worn my favorite sweater and a pair of heels, wrapped up in sheets and blankets and not die of heat exhaustion, gone days without needing to drive my car, rid myself of coffee hell, started volunteering again....

Has it really been 2 months?

Leo & Paper Gowns

I just saw a preview for Romeo + Juliet ( you know the one with Claire Danes and Leonardo DiCaprio). Oh, God, I was so in love with Leo. I literally saw the movie in the theater like 8 times. I bought the movie on the day it was released for purchase. I listened incessantly to the soundtrack, romanticizing a starcrossed lovestory for myself. Afterall, if my Romeo looked like that, I'd be okay with the dying thing. Ha!

So I had yet another doctor's appointment today (now, now - no need to worry, promise). Do you know that suddenly now they no longer provide cloth gowns for you to change into? The doctor instructs me to get undressed and proceeds to hand me a PAPER gown. Seriously? Yes. As if doctor exams aren't uncomfortable enough, they've now decided to make it even more of a dreadful visit. Jesus. Who's idea was this? I am going to venture out and guess it was a man's. Probably something about saving on washing. While I will admit there are a few procedures you must endure that are less than comfortable, you guys really have no concept of the shit we put up with yearly in the medical world. And, now, just when we thought that the ugly, thin, flowered gown was bad enough, they take that away from us. Here, use this napkin instead. Whatever - just don't even think about uttering the words, "now try to relax"....

No sleep for Sara

Have you ever been so entirely exhausted that you can't sleep? Thats what I get for 2 nights of too much fun and pretty much no sleep. Its a sickening feeling. One that leaves you unable to think clearly, produce any sort of real emotion, or carry on an even remotely intelligent conversation. Of course this is when I get phone calls that I would rather be somewhat coherent to be involved in. Yes, sorry to say, I just cleared your phone call. I just can't right now.

So... I am done with Starbucks - completely! I actually didn't work the full day. The aforementioned exhaustion rendered me nauseous and completely unfunctionable. Seriously - I haven't drank in how long, and yet felt like I was emersed in the hangover of my life. I had to run to the Ladies room at the smell of the steaming milk, and then again while mixing the mocha. God help me if I ever must suffer through pregnancy - they say smells are intensified when you are with-child. A thought, which in itself, throws me inside a bit of panic. Ugh. So, yeah, on my last day of the job where I didn't give the proper two weeks, I had to leave early. Oh well. Its done now - won't dwell on it, Sara.

On a more positive note... I LOVE MY NEW JOB!!!! Though my previous political position was less than satisfying, I am thrilled with the prospects of this one. After only week, I feel more energized and motivated at work than most of the last 18 months. Yes, I think this will be a good one. I'll keep you posted.

Well, this entry is noticably boring, this I realize. Sorry. Nothing interesting, while appropriate, seems to be surfacing right now. You know, I seem to come up with some of the best material when I am driving, an obviously poor time to blog. Hey, I know! I could get one of those tape recorders and talk to myself on my drive home. Ha! Can you imagine!?! Hmmm... I wonder how much those things cost?

Okay, my need for some sound REM sleep is overwhelming me. Time to slip into bed, and fall into a pleasant dream. The morning alarm will no doubt be ringing just moments from now, signaling the start of a new and hopefully promising week.
PS... it should be noted that though I bitch, it was worth it. Yes, definitely worth it.